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I want to end my life as a mother bc I feel utterl...

2012-11-16T21:52:38.447-05:00

I want to end my life as a mother bc I feel utterly defeated in every aspect of my life. I had all the opportunities in the world given to me and I messed all of them up- my education, my marriage, my credit, etc. I feel like there's nothing I can Di- well there is but I'm tired of going through this. I've been unhappy for as long as I can remember. Life to me is just a bunch if trapped energy with fleeting moments of happiness. It all sounds and seems so trivial as I write this but I'm tired. The crazy and horrible thing is I want to take my two little girls with me. If i didn't and just committed suicide I would be putting a huge burden on my family members. Leaving th w a mother who committed suicide and a father who would not raise them right at all. They would probably end up going nuts or getting in trouble w the law or just utterly depressed. I brought them here and I feel like I am sparing them the burdens and despair of all the events going on around the world today. I love them and I would hurt many by doing this but what do you do if you are just tired of trying and failing over and over again?

Hey, thanks for your information. I have been dep...

2012-10-13T01:41:12.670-04:00

Hey, thanks for your information. I have been depressed and suicidal for four years. I do understand that the survivors of suicide decisions grieve, but it isn't about the survivors. Those of use who want to end our lives are in a physical pain that others cannot understand. I love my children, but life has been exhausting for me...from an abusive childhood that included physical abuse, sexual abuse and abandonment, to a life partner who is exhaustingly immature.....I am done!! Death is a welcome relief for me and it give my husband and my daughter the financial benefit they have always sought..to them I'm just the cash cow anyway. I do believe my son will genuinely miss me, and for him...I am sorry to have caused him pain. I think a few friends will mis me...but I am truly just too exhausted to go on.

I think I have the unique perspective to talk abou...

2012-09-22T02:56:33.268-04:00

I think I have the unique perspective to talk about suicide (or attempted)from both the side of the one attempting it and having a loved one attempt it. I tried twice to commit suicide by overdose. The first time I did not die (obviously) but due to humiliation, I did not seek medical attention and was incredibly ill for quite some time after. The second time was an attempt by overdose again & when
I was still alive to watch the most beautiful sunrise..I knew that I was alive for a reason. This time I did seek medical help but was treated so cruelly by the nurses, I left b4 I could talk to someone. I just want to say that when one is feeling so utterly desperate & alone & feels like it is the answer to all ones' probs...that is when I could have used some love ,compassion & understanding & to be reminded that while the problem is temporary...suicide is not. I am a very UNselfish person...yet when I felt so horrible & like it was the only way out, I wasn't capable of thinking of my "loved ones". Now,in the past 6 months I have been on the "other end" of attempted suicide. In my case a few days after our family dog of 12 years passed away in my arms, my son came to me and revealed that he had attempted suicide. Although I knew he had been dealing with some depression for a while,the symptoms he displayed were minor yet the amount he was truly suffering was monumentally major. Tonight I found a suicide note my 15yr old daughter had written earlier as she has contemplated suicide (since i discovered how much she had been indulging in self destructive behavior)b/c she is having to face some realities that she has been running from. She no longer has access to her 'crutches' that have masked the true intense amount of pain she has been in for a while now. They are both sweet,kind,loving & caring souls & had not realized how utterly devastating it is to their loved ones.In short,when you are so immersed n your depression and feel like there is nothing left to live for,you just want the pain to stop. Now,as someone on the receiving end...it is without a doubt, the most painful way to lose (or to realize you may have lost) someone who is so precious to you. Life has not been easy & still isn't always easy but suicide is no longer an option as a way out of my problems b/c the greatest lesson I have learned is that problems are temporary but suicide is not. The other lesson I have learned is that taking your life is the most devastating way to leave your loved ones behind & the problem you create through suicide (the guilt that you leave your loved ones feeling) is just as permanent as your death. I truly hope that these words can help even just one tortured soul...because if you can find at least one positive to come out of something as negative as suiicde, than you have learned a valuable lesson that may just help to save another tortured soul out there. My son is doing better now and is very much his happy kind loving self again & our relationship is better than it has ever been. And even though my daughter is just starting her journey back to herself...I will do my damnedest to do whatever it takes to help her get back to herself again as well. As someone who has been there, I truly feel that I can understand what they are going thru & as someone watching their loved one suffer, I can let them know that even though they may feel alone...they are never alone! Life IS worth living & fighting for!!!

People are always so quick to voice their opinions...

2012-09-13T22:55:25.318-04:00

People are always so quick to voice their opinions about others who want to commit suicide. Do us all a favor and go back to your perfect lives in your perfect world and fuck off. Why should you care if someone wants to kill themself? No one seems to care about anyone until it gets to that level. It won't make any difference if I or if 1,000,000 others commit suicide tomorrow because the world will continue on. The sun will rise and set and time will not stop and mourn for me or anyone else. People will go on raping, killing, molesting children, and hating people because of their ethnic background or the color of their skin. My decision to off myself is my own and meaniless words of encouragement is extremely futile! People don't just wake up one morning and decide to commit suicide. I can't speak for everyone and their reasons, but from the time I was 3 years old I wanted to die. I have tried and tried to live a normal productive life and say out loud that I love myself and I want to live, but I don't. Every moment of everyday is unbearable, and if there is a God then he hates me and I curse his name for allowing me to be born. I would have rather died and rotted in my mothers womb and then removed and thrown in the trash. Don't feel sorry for me or anyone else because I don't. Not at all.

If there is something that really makes me angry i...

2012-08-03T16:20:54.063-04:00

If there is something that really makes me angry is when people say that those who commit suicide are selfish. This is so wrong, so annoying. And the worst part is that this comment is made by moslty those who have never been suicidal at any stage of their lives. How can you affirm sucha a thing when you have never experienced the agony and frustration of trying to commit suicide but at the same time not being able to do it because you have brothers, sisters, parents and friends who need you?

Was the mother of the person who posted saying that his/her mother committed suicide with carbon dioxide so selfish that she decided that it was so much better to die than to leave her daughter or son in this world?

Do you really think that those who commit suicide never think about their loved ones?
I am surprised that you being depressed can make such a statement.

Vodka, Extra-Strength Tylenol and a warm bath. Wou...

2012-07-21T19:46:16.105-04:00

Vodka, Extra-Strength Tylenol and a warm bath. Would this be ineffective or too painful???

I'm not trying to kill myself. I'm writing a story and I want try to be as accurate as possible

Suicide is an option, and should be legalized. Why...

2012-07-21T13:12:44.086-04:00

Suicide is an option, and should be legalized. Why you has to be condemned to live a life that you do not wants or you are tired of it. Who gave to the society the right to decide that I can not take my life?

I suffer from such painful depression and I think ...

2012-07-12T19:33:50.139-04:00

I suffer from such painful depression and I think because of the lack of understanding of mental health issues, people who are in terminal pain from mental illness are truly looked down on when they want to end the pain. If you have cancer, you are often give morphine, and maybe just a little too much and you are gone. I heard the injection of NoSalt was a pretty win-win. Everyone thinks you have died from a heart attack so there is no weirdness for the people left behind. They are sad because you had a heart attack, not freaked that you just could not bear the pain any more and had to get on with it.

you don't need to swear. it's just a blog....

2012-07-04T15:44:46.212-04:00

you don't need to swear. it's just a blog. but i'll play with you. . .what if i no longer have any loved ones ''to upset'' will that be alright with you then? ha, or better yet your ''loved ones'' trying to get rid of you. suicide is iberating to so many.

I feel exactly as you do. I'd probably be dead...

2012-06-04T18:25:04.528-04:00

I feel exactly as you do. I'd probably be dead by now if I didn't think how it would effect people close to me.

With God, all things are possible. don't kill ...

2012-02-25T13:30:06.767-05:00

With God, all things are possible.
don't kill yourself: nomatter what
you are going through. God will help
you.

To Johnny b. good. Sorry you think suicidal people...

2012-02-23T19:57:30.253-05:00

To Johnny b. good.
Sorry you think suicidal people are a threat to society. I been looking for easy methods and your posting helped me get out of my slump. It's not Columbine, always. My Mom of 86, with advanced Cancer decided she had enough. The 'thinning' of the population happened with war, disease and old age. Watch 'Logans Run' for your theories. Alcohol came up as part of the method. I guess it helps if you want a slow, painful death from liver failure,brain damage etc.
Unless, of course you come from Canada and all it would take is a few cold ones and exposure to extreme weather... Never been to jail, always a peace keeper.
Blake from B.C.

People who are against suicide have no right to pr...

2012-02-10T22:08:41.440-05:00

People who are against suicide have no right to prevent someone from ending their own life. Even if they have a treatable illness or some short term problem. If you really care about someone that is suicidal then stop trying to prevent it, a short and happy life is far better than years of suffering and torment. Death is a door to peace not suffering, which is why we should allow euthanasia in America.

My advice for those who are suicidal is to seek treatment in one of the many countries that allow euthanasia. After all you wont need money once you're dead.
Another alternative is getting a doctor to prescribe Zoloft and overdosing. Small amount of medication needed to succeed. Or wait till you turn 21, buy a handgun and wait till you feel its your last option, otherwise live life with that safety knowing you can end your life at any time you want, it's actually empowering.

Do not attempt to cut your wrists, overdose on over the counter medication, or jump off something. Bleed out takes too long and usually results in hospitalization, if you can even cut deep enough. OTC Medication requires a very high dosage usually resulting in nausea and vomiting. Falling is scary and isn't necessary to feel afraid when you die.

Wow.this is actually a very interesting article an...

2012-02-10T17:17:29.972-05:00

Wow.this is actually a very interesting article and the comments are good too. It is right that everyone should have their own choice in death. Wither they want to take their own life or let old age be the death of them. Its all their choice and I dont get why people dont undertand that. Ive felt like so many times I should just do it, but for some reason I never have. I wake up in a horriable life and dont like it at all. I go to sleep not wanting to get up. Its not that I dont want to live, its just I am done with life for the most part. I know Im young but when you dont have dreams or aspire for a future its hard to think about going on. I dont know what I should do, but Im tired of people and if I said I wanted to kill myself theyd say im crazy and theyd try to get me help. I don want it. Ive been to theropy before and that really didnt do much more than what people already do when they know im upset.

Is there a way to commit suicide so you could stil...

2012-02-08T03:19:52.517-05:00

Is there a way to commit suicide so you could still donate your organs? So far I don't think there is, but I could be wrong. That's another good reason to make it legal. Help save the ones that wanna live :)

I agree that it should be a choice. I had a frien...

2012-02-08T03:12:32.055-05:00

I agree that it should be a choice. I had a friend that I knew for 20 years. He was never a happy person. He took his own life and now I feel that he is out of his misery and done suffering. As far as hurting the people you leave behind and how horrible and selfish it is..well, I think it's selfish of the friends and family to make such a deal over it. If they really love you I think they should support your decision. If you love somebody set them free- right? I always thought we were supposed to make the best choices for ourselves and put ourselves first. I'm glad I stumbled upon this site. I am not saying to go kill yourselves either, but I think it should be pro-choice. I knew two other guys that killed themselves in the car, carbon monoxide poisoning. Old school- with a hose, duct tape, a full tank of gas and some good music blasting.

>> Personally it should be legalized and rea...

2012-02-05T14:42:01.767-05:00

>> Personally it should be legalized and readily available

Hear, hear.

>> Suicide SUCKS for those you leave behind that CARE.

Living sucks for those who are at the point of considering suicide. Let them go, and stop being selfish.

Everything is treatable. But it doesn't mean u...

2012-01-17T15:06:19.150-05:00

Everything is treatable. But it doesn't mean u could approach a worthy living. So I'm right now 10 years in treatment of depression. And yeah I'm considering suicide.

i agree with traveling jhonnie the state took my o...

2012-01-07T21:18:45.508-05:00

i agree with traveling jhonnie the state took my one and only baby boy i was a single father struggling. and i enjoyed it as lon as we were together. i didnt even hit my kids or anything. this drug addict bitch kept calling cps with bogus shit becuz i wouldent front her. i lost my job car and house it took years to finally get somewhere in life i sell bcuz i have problems keeping a job but i still got them for our better future i've been app. for ssi but i have trouble bcuz the states broke my son was my world i havent heard from him all year i try to be strong for him but i dont know if i'll ever see him again so i'm not content my heart i wanna kill the judge and myself so they wont have the satisfaction of torturing in prison been there done that. that man took my life without a shred of proof. i dont have no money to even suppot myself less long classes that cost 25 dollars a week i dont have nothing no frinds family,or kids who the fuck would miss me. but i don't have the money or gas to kill the judge

I have been contemplating. I disowned my family du...

2011-12-22T13:10:13.427-05:00

I have been contemplating. I disowned my family due to years of mental and emotional abuse, I have been physically, mentally and emotionally abused by men and even a few women, and my current boyfriend wants to kick me out of his house because I am such a mess I guess I haven't been treating him right either. He has betrayed me by discussing our problems with his ex-girlfriend who absolutely hates me and I just can't seem to let anything go. I have so much anxiety and depression and bipolar disorder, and to top everything else off I have a rare neurological disease called CADASIL that will cause dementia and incontinence in the not so far off future. My so called family gave me no empathy and as a matter of fact the only thing that was said to me was that is what happens when I do drugs. I used to do a bunch of drugs to try and escape all the pain. Another thing is that I have had a broken neck and at least I can still walk but I also have fibromyalgia and arthritis. I am such a mess in so many ways. I will turn 43 next week. Maybe. Thanks for all the suggestions. I just don't want any more pain... emotional OR physical. How can I go on? Maybe a couple of people love me. My son even thinks I'm a cunt and a stupid crazy bitch. I just don't see how I can go on...

Hello; good article, but lacking in one area (in c...

2011-12-03T04:31:04.406-05:00

Hello; good article, but lacking in one area (in common with all such articles). I need a known method that uses something that I can actually readily obtain, and I can't just walk into Tesco for Nembutarol or go out and by a car (and a garage) to gas myself (see, suicide-haters -- we are ethical too!)

I want something that I can readily find (other than a large knife) that I can take up a hill with me, ingest, and pass peacefully from my wretched life. I am a washed-up late-40s academic, effectively homeless, unemployed and have just lost the love of my life (and I've known enough candidates to know that she is not replaceable).

I have been slipping down this cliff-face for some years, and now I just want to let go.

I just need the "...where can I obtain" along with the "how". Please :)

Anonymous Anonymous said... "It has been...

2011-11-13T08:24:06.620-05:00

Anonymous Anonymous said...

"It has been sayed that suicide is a permanet solution to a temporary problem. But, what should one do when a temporary problem continues for years? Even a stone wears away when water is run over it continually."

4:31 PM

Suicide is an irreversible act, an act where one decides to... well...

Life is one of the rare things in that is given to you, we, us, freely with no action required on our part. Who am I, or who are we, to take it or to end it, to...destroy that which was given to you, me, or us, by a power greater than ourselves. If anything, our responsibility is to make the most of it; whether that means helping others or saving other forms and permutations of organic life itself is up to you and us.

And, by the way, the complete erosion of a stone (depending on several variables) takes centuries and millennia, is a completely natural process, and the stone (which was never alive in the first place) has neither the choice, nor the will to avoid this process. Also relevant, an inorganic solid, such as a stone, is no greater than the sum of its parts, whereas organic life is precisely the opposite. Last, but not least, the stone can be reformed in another time and place.

Yes car exhaust kills. Yes the tricyclic antidepr...

2011-11-11T20:35:01.003-05:00

Yes car exhaust kills.

Yes the tricyclic antidepressants suppress part of the central and peripheral nervous systems enough to kill you and in relatively low doses (say 8 capsules or tablets instead of your prescribed 1). They are not at all difficult to get from a shrink, and I believe there is no pain involved.

Also easy and very effective is a strong opioid (oxycodone) in high doses (efficacy varies depending on weight and tolerance) alone, or, more effectively and with lower doses, opioids and benzos; also opioids, benzos, and/or barbiturates. Barb's are just harder to come by these days unless you're a seizure patient (phenobarbital) or suffer from migraines or focal headaches (Fioricet - contains butalbital). On the other hand, a combination of Xanax (alprazolam) or some other benzo and an opioid even as low-potency as Vicodin/Lortab/Norco (hydrocodone) or Percocet/Roxicodone/Oxycontin (oxycodone) is one of the leading causes of drug-induced death in the U.S (take Heath Ledger for example). You simply go to sleep and don't wake up.

A more easy and more readily attainable source is, as someone mentioned, Datura stramonium (a.k.a. Devil's trumpet and Jimson weed)which grows all over the place in the U.S. or the seeds of which can be bought and the plant grown fairly quickly to fruition (<6 months). It contains a relatively large spectrum of psycho- and nerve- active chemicals which cause (usually consumed as a tea w/leaves) hallucinations leading to delusions, complete interruption of the acetylcholine pathways (nerve-to-muscle communication and activation), and respiratory depression and eventually heart fibrillation and flatlining.

But, no matter how you see it or argue that it's your in-born right to do it, self-preservation is one of the strongest, innate motives/forces of nature in any form of life. Any legitimate and absolute desire to end one's life is, in one form or another, a component and indication of some type of insanity and should be treated as such; that's the bottom line.

@ANONYMOUS: You're assuming that those of us ...

2011-11-07T01:43:04.079-05:00

@ANONYMOUS: You're assuming that those of us considering suicide have people who CARE about us. If we actually felt that way, we wouldn't be suicidal. I had two uncles commit suicide (one used a gun, one used pills). My biggest advice is don't leave a mess and DO leave a note.

My sister has tried to commit suicide a few times ...

2011-10-19T17:14:56.747-04:00

My sister has tried to commit suicide a few times using Tylenol. It was mentioned 15 means you could possibly be trying to commit suicide. Doesn't it depend on your tolerance how much it takes someone? She took a lot more then 15. Just trying to understand